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2day wuz fine.. had breakfast wif moo~~ nt enjoyin myself at 1st bcuz moo wuz at a reli reli reli bad mood.. haha.. bt i ges he felt bette later on.. wut he felt is exactly wut i had been overcomin all de time.. bt i ges his case his more serious:p it's reli nt easy bein de eldest at hme.. u ll b underappreciated.. ur fault will b magnified n ur good deeds r minimized.. parents may love u.. in deir hearts.. bt nt gud in expressin.. as in dey dun tell u o put dem in words.. wat dey say r alwiz negative.. dey tot ure grown up enuf 2 take all de negative stuff dey say.. dey may nt scold u when u do sumthg wrong as ure old enuf 2 notice ur faults bt dey burst everythg dey r nt satisfied wif all dis time at 1 time when dey r in a bad mood n u did sumthg wrong.. it may b a minor fault.. im underappreciated.. i dun gt respect fr my siblings.. i dun gt trust fr my parents.. dey nvr c wat i contribute 2 de family.. dey noe wat i din contribute 2 de family.. my mum nvr ask me 2do stuff o household chores bcuz she doesnt trust me.. n yet she scolded me 4 nt helpin o nt noein how 2 do sumthg simple.. bt de point is.. u nvr told me how 2 do it.. how do u expect me 2 noe how.. how does my sis n bro noe? cuz dey were taught by u.. i dunno whr stuff were located n kept at hme?? cuz u nvr tell me whr u place dem.. u dun expect me 2 go ard de hse lookin at whr stuff r kept rite?? mayb nt all elder kids face dis.. bt i do.. sumtimes i try very hard 2 meet 2 deir expectations.. bein a gud sis.. a responsible n helpful daughter.. bt i dun seem 2 gt de response i expected.. afte i helped u do ur stuff when de others were bz watchin tv.. n scolded sis 4misplacin sumthg n all u can say is stop releasin tension on ur sis juz bcuz u did dis tiny lil bit of work.. do u noe how hurt is dat?? i may nt do alot of stuff.. bt i still put effort in2 doin those 'tiny lil bit of work'.. n juz bcuz i scolded my lil sis.. i do not gt any credit.. actually i dun expect much.. i tot by makin u happy n slightly lessen ur burden will at least win 1% of ur

trust.. o made ya smile 2 me more often.. bt i nvr seem 2 had succeeded doin dat..o i gt is makin ya tink i nid sumthg.. i wanna go sumwhr n wanna buy sumthg.. everytime i ask permission 2 go out wif frens afte i help out wif sumthg.. dey sum how relate dem.. u gt me?? meanin..dey ll tiink i help out bcuz i wanted permission 2 go out.. all dis made me gaf up tryin 2 meet ur expectation.. it's like no matter wat i do.. i juz wont gt wat i want.. wat i want fr dis family.. i envy my sis n bro 4 havin gud interactions wif my parents.. my lil sis can hug n kiss my mum till now.. she's std 6 now.. my mum tell secrets 2my bro.. my sis can act as rude as she cud bt nt gt any scolding.. i cant even rmb de laz time my mum hug n kisses me.. i doubt she had ever done it.. im nt tryin 2 potray dat i live in a terrible family.. it's juz y i juz dun act like a gud sis n daughter.. bt still..ppl can nvr b contented wif wat dey haf.. i ll juz accept my family n c wat i can do wif it.. if ure facin de same prob as me.. life muz go on~!! de advice is.. dun take every thg dey say 2 seriously.. dey may nt mean it.. mum n dad will nvr b mad at u.. hey~!! i planned 2 write sumthg happy in dis post de lo~!! y turn out 2 b so depressed de.. haha..


i kinda enjoy my day 2day.. spent a wonderful bt short time wif moo moo darling.. i like him more wif his cheerful n happy looks.. haha.. v exchanged fon themes hehe.. haha.. den maths v had a test.. martin gaf weird question again.. bt i managed 2 do half:p owh.. v met ms moey during break.. she told us abt de mckl treasure hunt.. it's a compulsory.. hmm.. 4gt 2 ask moo whther moo wanna join me.. haha.. 2person a team.. haha.. i dun tink he wans.. hahaa..den after bio.. i wuz told dat mr lopez de sports club teacher incharge wans 2 c all de captains.. so v had a meeting.. onli 4 of us turned up..me alex justin phoebe n shanon.. shanonis nt a captain:phaha.. v tokked abt de mckl games carnival.. it's on july.. bt v hafta start preparin now.. i hope more skuls will participate.. n i hafta collect 12 bux fr all netballers.. aiy.. it's expensive gosh.. 3bux per trainin.. fan~ den i played huiwen'ss guitar.. chunkit taught me qing tian intro.. haha.. made me wanna learn more.. cuz i sux.. haha.. mayb can learn fr frens n moo.. der's alot of ppl hu learns guitar.. benji is a pro wan:p gurls play guitar 2~!! haha..so i wanna learn:p den i played bball~~!! haha.. wif de seniors mostly.. dey looked impressed wif jo n n i playin bball.. i mean gurls playin bball.. dey clap when v shoot in.. dey make way when v tried 2 lay up.. haha.. i dunno dey r tryin 2 b sarcastic o juz bein nice.. haha.. actually.. i gagadei oso ex wms skul team bench warmer la.. sure at least noe how 2 shoot n lay up de ma.. nth impressive.. haha.. sumore i shoot 10 8 nt in de.. i lay up 10 9 nt in de.. lay up 10 times5 reach under basket knot find ball ddi.. haha.. mayb shud ask moo 2 teach me.. bt moo drop ddi.. nt as gud as laz time:p haha.. im tellin de truth oo.. bt he's still gud:):) n i didnt noe pangtsen actually rmb my name.. i tot he onli noe im de matmatsui.. haha..


spca wuz fun n boring 2day.. i din clean any cages.. i din sweep de floor.. i din wash any bowls.. i din do like anythg.. owh.. i played wif dogs n puppies n take pic of dem.. haha.. i saw dis doggie.. damn cute~!! i love it very much.. if i dun haf xiaobai at hme.. i ll ask my parents 2buy it.. it's a white furry dog.. n it's well trained.. when u move near it.. it ll stand up n gif ya it's paw.. haha.. so cute~!! haha.. bt gud thgs nvr alwiz happened.. bad thgs happened rite afte it.. an indian family bought dat doggie hme~~~~!!! aiy.. it's de 1st week i met it n yet v hafta say gudbye.. sad~~nah..pics 4 de day.. hahaa..

cute pup~!! nice pose:pvery very cute er~~nice pose II~~ hahahey~!! meanie~~puppy love~!!??de main character wuz supposed 2 b de pup(left) n whyeleon(right)~ blur melvinfrog liked puppies~ ahhasweet couple~~hush puppy~ owh.. nt puppy.. dog..haha.. de white furry doggie~!

wat r u starin at dear:pit wuz showin me it's paw:Pi wore dis earrings 2 skul.. cuz nth 2do:p alot of ppl say nice er.. thx yunnie~!! she bought me dese on my 17th bday.. haha.. moo said dey were nice 2.. haha.. im tired.. gonna go watch tv ddi.. tata~~