aza aza~~

haha.. ppl blog after finish wat dey shud do.. i blog before i start doin things i shud do.. eg/study.. haha.. 4 paper gone~!! 5 more to go.. haha.. just hope i ll do better dis time.. after exam.. im goin 2 get myself a new phone~!! krakra.. de phone im usin now.. SE K750i.. de joystick spoil ddi.. again.. haiz.. so im now considerin a few pnones..

W580i.. metro pink.. walkman phone.. shake control.. camera 2mp..digital zoom x4.. picture blogging.. RM1299

W910i.. hearty red.. walkman phone.. shake control.. camera 2mp.. digital zoom x2.. photo fix.. picture blogging.. auto rotate.. RM1699

S500i.. mysterious green.. design phone.. dynamic themes.. camera 2mp.. digital zoom x4.. picture blogging.. RM999

argh.. dunno which to choose.. W910i supposed to be out by now.. bt dat day de 1u guy say next yr.. omb.. i reli cant stand de joystick ddi.. it's giving me loadz of problems.. haiz.. u noe s500i dynamic themes?? it actually changes from day to night n season to season.. it's so cool~ bt i like w580i metro pink~!! bt dat day i went to 1 of this handphone shop n dey tell me it's not goin 2 come out.. most of dem dun even noe der's dis metro pink model.. garrrh~ some mmore jo n got a s500i ddi.. wonder if she mind if im usin de same phone as her.. haha~!!

STUDY OOOO~

1more day 2 go~~

gaga~ 1more day to the first written paper for mock~!! who blogs so frequent when exams are near de corner?? i mean at the corner~!! haha.. me~!! the non-studier~haha..

i once tried encouraging myself to study by tellin myself.. u must work hard so u can:
-be a rich shopaholic *buy everythg i like without even lookin at de price tags^^*
-be a genius*hu doesnt wanna b??*
-be able to live a satisfying life
-be able to pay back my parents*yeayea.. buy everything dey want.. bring them to everywhere dey want.. hehehe*
-be able to afford to send my kids to overseas 4 preschool study^^*dey say kids are more fully developed.. cuz dey absorbed the most fr de age of 1-5*
-be able to give my kids wat eva dey wan~*be de best mum eva~!! haha*
-be a intelligent n smart n all rounded girl~krakra*so dat every guy will b over me><*
conclusion:
-be able to go 2 a good uni.. haha..

bt i think most probably.. im goin imu.. it's a nt-2-bad uni.. nice buildings n facillities.. bt de course i want.. nutrtion n dietetics will be open next yr july.. it means i ll be de 1st batch of guinea pigs~ haiz.. n dey cant even promise dat it's internationally recognise><

haha.. i juz realise im very nicknameable~ haha..
-ojian-shadow-pepperhahaisyeoh-moo-cow-taikajie-sleepingpro-night cow-panda cow-180-ah sou-yoyoyo-duizhang-
de whole of jm is calling me ojian.. except those new ones.. dey even totally 4gt my real name!! bt i love it n pepperhahaisyeoh~~ cuz it bring back loadzzz of memories.. haha
at college~ im a cow><>
sleeping pro n night cow is new=p cuz i wuz caught sleeping during bio><
180 doesnt refer 2 my height.. gaga.. it's somethg else..
panda cow is obviously bcause of my eye bags.. haha

time to leave de comp n do wat every1 else is doin~!! study~!!

mock's coming~

woohoo~ wat am i doin on9 when mock is like 5 days later??!! i dunno.. as im NOT a studier.. i think it's alrite.. bt bt bt..moo say mock is important.. bt i dun think so.. bt if i hafta use it 4 application 4 uni's.. it is important.. haha.. i ll study la..

haha.. 1st of all.. this is no short hair.. no wig.. it's my hair.. bt juz that i hid de long part of it under de short part of it.. so dun ask me "i tot u cut ure hair???!" haha.. bt u can ask me how did i do it.. krakra..

no.. nt act cute.. it's natural~

haha.. n i found a new boutique.. named MOOIE~!! haha.. it's a bangsar jln telawi2.. i tink it's gettin more popular now as de seventeen talks abt dem n deir product.. haha.. check it out~

dont mind de half-a-boob~

haha.. my bro is now crazy over baking.. fr bread to cookies to bun to cheese cake n now shifon cake*how do u spell it??*.. haha.. n i found this in de shop where he buy his baking stuff..

choc~!!!!!! omg it's so huge~ haha.. n heavy too~ haha..

haha.. my masterpiece no.1my masterpiece no.2~my masterpiece no.3~!! um.. i mean finishin all of dem><

haha~!! i juz looooooooooooooove chocs~!! yea.. dat's y.. look at how well i had grown.. krakra..

haha.. dat day we went kl sentral n we (singning and i) spot dis sexy~ haha.. suzuki swift in purplish pink~!! it's so damn hot and sexy~!! haha.. juz hope im de owner.. agaga~

de colour look much more prettier in real~ love it~^^

im addicted to rubrik cube~~!! mum found dis..

hehe~ yes~!! follow exactly wat is given and ta-da! complete~! haha.. and no~ it's not easy~ u muz b smart enough to interpret this.. haha.. like me.. gaga~ bt of cuz it ll b more fun if u can solve it usin ur own brain power~ haha..
hehe~ found dis pic~ mooie jelly cake<3~>

boo~

im sad~!! upset~!! depressed~!! someone~!!!! plz comfort me~!!!!!!!!!

y me..

i juz dunno.. his ideal gurl cant b me.. i juz cant b his ideal 1.. im nt good enuf.. every1 in coll noes he ll b comin by juz lookin at wat i wore dat day.. dey notice de change.. bt he doesnt.. he expects more.. he compares.. wif ppl hu r in de same world as him.. bt mayb nt as me.. he doesnt un.. wat shud i do? i noe i ll nvr meet his expectations.. his ideal 1 is.. unreachable..

im sry..

i cried till i fell asleep laz nite.. i wuz in a trauma.. i dunno wat 2 do.. dis mornin i woke up wif an headache n puffy eyes feelin real scared.. i noe it's my fault.. i'd been real stubborn.. i jz dun like ppl tellin me wat im doin is wrong when i tink i haf reasons 4 wat im doin now.. when i dont.. i dun like acceptin ppl's view n suggestion when i tink dey are nt true.. i noe ure doin it 4 own good.. bt feel pressured.. i cant cope wif pressure n stress.. im tired.. nt onli bcuz of copin wif studies.. wat i wanted 2 tell ya wuz i felt tired bcuz of my parents controllin me.. v can onli c each other once a week 4 less den 2hrs.. v hafta reli plan every outing reli nicely 2 make sure v spend our very lil time doin meaningful stuff n haf a lot of fun.. hafta make sure my parents dun find out abt us 2 make sure dey wont haf bad impression over u.. to watch wat i say when i tok 2 my parents so dat dey wont get angry over me n nt let me do wateva i wanna do includin seein u.. to make sure i dun accidentally tok abt couples issue in front of my parents.. can onli tok 2 u late in de nite.. muz close de conversation when my siblings approach me while v were chattin on9.. i reli dun mind all of dese.. bt juz feelin a lil exhausted.. juz wanted 2 hear ya.. didnt mean 2 fight wif ya.. i noe u did all of these 4 my own good.. im reli workin 2wards it.. otherwise.. i wont b askin u over 2 study wif me.. it's nt simply 2 create opportunity 2 meet ya.. i reli tot i can seek help on studies fr u.. i cry alot i cry over small issues.. it's nt bcuz i haf alot of tears o bcuz i simply like 2 cry.. it's bcuz wat u sat wat u do wat u tink affects me alot.. i cant stop fr knowin wat u feel wat u tink.. a single word fr u can make me feel happy 4 de whole day can hurt me very deeply.. i hope u ll un.. i u had been noticing.. i had tried 2 make myself independant compare 2 de old me.. i dun call ya suddenly n cry n tell ya i miss u.. i dun c wat other couples do kept bugging u.. i reli heart n need ya dear.. im sry 4 everythg i do dat had upset ya.. i serously didnt mean it.. it's hard 2 change one's attitude.. bt i ll try real hard.. plz give me some more time.. i love ya dear..

bored~

haha.. terribly bored..

tv comp tv comp tv comp.. i need fresh air:'( i wanna go out.. im feelin as if im a lifeless super lazy pig stayin at hme eatin n watchin tv n sleep n dream:'(