mock's coming~

woohoo~ wat am i doin on9 when mock is like 5 days later??!! i dunno.. as im NOT a studier.. i think it's alrite.. bt bt bt..moo say mock is important.. bt i dun think so.. bt if i hafta use it 4 application 4 uni's.. it is important.. haha.. i ll study la..

haha.. 1st of all.. this is no short hair.. no wig.. it's my hair.. bt juz that i hid de long part of it under de short part of it.. so dun ask me "i tot u cut ure hair???!" haha.. bt u can ask me how did i do it.. krakra..

no.. nt act cute.. it's natural~

haha.. n i found a new boutique.. named MOOIE~!! haha.. it's a bangsar jln telawi2.. i tink it's gettin more popular now as de seventeen talks abt dem n deir product.. haha.. check it out~

dont mind de half-a-boob~

haha.. my bro is now crazy over baking.. fr bread to cookies to bun to cheese cake n now shifon cake*how do u spell it??*.. haha.. n i found this in de shop where he buy his baking stuff..

choc~!!!!!! omg it's so huge~ haha.. n heavy too~ haha..

haha.. my masterpiece no.1my masterpiece no.2~my masterpiece no.3~!! um.. i mean finishin all of dem><

haha~!! i juz looooooooooooooove chocs~!! yea.. dat's y.. look at how well i had grown.. krakra..

haha.. dat day we went kl sentral n we (singning and i) spot dis sexy~ haha.. suzuki swift in purplish pink~!! it's so damn hot and sexy~!! haha.. juz hope im de owner.. agaga~

de colour look much more prettier in real~ love it~^^

im addicted to rubrik cube~~!! mum found dis..

hehe~ yes~!! follow exactly wat is given and ta-da! complete~! haha.. and no~ it's not easy~ u muz b smart enough to interpret this.. haha.. like me.. gaga~ bt of cuz it ll b more fun if u can solve it usin ur own brain power~ haha..
hehe~ found dis pic~ mooie jelly cake<3~>

boo~

im sad~!! upset~!! depressed~!! someone~!!!! plz comfort me~!!!!!!!!!

y me..

i juz dunno.. his ideal gurl cant b me.. i juz cant b his ideal 1.. im nt good enuf.. every1 in coll noes he ll b comin by juz lookin at wat i wore dat day.. dey notice de change.. bt he doesnt.. he expects more.. he compares.. wif ppl hu r in de same world as him.. bt mayb nt as me.. he doesnt un.. wat shud i do? i noe i ll nvr meet his expectations.. his ideal 1 is.. unreachable..

im sry..

i cried till i fell asleep laz nite.. i wuz in a trauma.. i dunno wat 2 do.. dis mornin i woke up wif an headache n puffy eyes feelin real scared.. i noe it's my fault.. i'd been real stubborn.. i jz dun like ppl tellin me wat im doin is wrong when i tink i haf reasons 4 wat im doin now.. when i dont.. i dun like acceptin ppl's view n suggestion when i tink dey are nt true.. i noe ure doin it 4 own good.. bt feel pressured.. i cant cope wif pressure n stress.. im tired.. nt onli bcuz of copin wif studies.. wat i wanted 2 tell ya wuz i felt tired bcuz of my parents controllin me.. v can onli c each other once a week 4 less den 2hrs.. v hafta reli plan every outing reli nicely 2 make sure v spend our very lil time doin meaningful stuff n haf a lot of fun.. hafta make sure my parents dun find out abt us 2 make sure dey wont haf bad impression over u.. to watch wat i say when i tok 2 my parents so dat dey wont get angry over me n nt let me do wateva i wanna do includin seein u.. to make sure i dun accidentally tok abt couples issue in front of my parents.. can onli tok 2 u late in de nite.. muz close de conversation when my siblings approach me while v were chattin on9.. i reli dun mind all of dese.. bt juz feelin a lil exhausted.. juz wanted 2 hear ya.. didnt mean 2 fight wif ya.. i noe u did all of these 4 my own good.. im reli workin 2wards it.. otherwise.. i wont b askin u over 2 study wif me.. it's nt simply 2 create opportunity 2 meet ya.. i reli tot i can seek help on studies fr u.. i cry alot i cry over small issues.. it's nt bcuz i haf alot of tears o bcuz i simply like 2 cry.. it's bcuz wat u sat wat u do wat u tink affects me alot.. i cant stop fr knowin wat u feel wat u tink.. a single word fr u can make me feel happy 4 de whole day can hurt me very deeply.. i hope u ll un.. i u had been noticing.. i had tried 2 make myself independant compare 2 de old me.. i dun call ya suddenly n cry n tell ya i miss u.. i dun c wat other couples do kept bugging u.. i reli heart n need ya dear.. im sry 4 everythg i do dat had upset ya.. i serously didnt mean it.. it's hard 2 change one's attitude.. bt i ll try real hard.. plz give me some more time.. i love ya dear..

bored~

haha.. terribly bored..

tv comp tv comp tv comp.. i need fresh air:'( i wanna go out.. im feelin as if im a lifeless super lazy pig stayin at hme eatin n watchin tv n sleep n dream:'(

1month break~!!

hey bloggie..
sry 4 abandoning ya.. had been very bz.. coll.. revisions.. exams..
now im havin my so call 1 month break.. actually der's onli 3 weeks.. haha.. 1st week.. netball practices.. haha.. i love playin netball.. bt nt netball practices.. cuz 3days i went.. de coach ffk.. tho v had a bette time.. more fun.. haha.. bt u c.. have u seen netball practice havin on theories.. v had like 1 hr practical n 1 hr++ theory.. Theory on netball rules n strategy n stuff~!! BORED~!! bt de teacher in charged didnt seem 2 notice.. aiks.. n de organizing part.. mckl games carnival.. 'de main purpose of dis carnival is 2 let students cum c de coll n encourage dem 2 join de coll..' said lopez(teacher in charged) lol.. laz yr i went 4 de carnival.. once i stepped in de coll im discouraged 2 join 2 college.. haha.. he noes NTH abt games n sports.. can onli b described wif 1 word.. stupid..

i had my undang test 2day.. passed.. haha.. i went 4 de kursus on wednesday.. 4 de 2nd time.. yes! 2nd time.. cuz de laz time i went wuz march 2006 now june 2007.. more den 1 yr ddi.. expired.. haha.. poor me.. at least now things are movin smoothly.. tmr im goin 4 amali.. yeay yeay~!!

im bored im bored im bored~!! i wanna go out.. i dowana stay at hme.. i wanna watch movie.. i wanna watch 200pounds beauty.. i wanna watch transformer.. i wanna go shopping.. i wanna go swimming.. i wanna foos.. hehe.. i wanna go gai gai~!! i nid 2 buy moo's bday prezzie~!! bt im grounded:'( moo's bday is dis sunday~!! dis sunday~!! 2more days~!! 24more hours~!! grrr~~ ish~!!

how much i hope it cud rain money~!! lotzz of money.. cash~ coins~ i dun mind cheques 2~ arh.. dreamin~~ krakra.. so many goods so lil money.. haha.. so bored.. alone at hme.. siblings off 2 school.. i tot it wud b fun.. haha.. i nid sum entertainment~!!

owh.. i bot de book i alwiz wanted 2 read.. expensive oo.. 30bux+ gone.. can watch a movie wif mooie wif twin seat and 2 games of foosball.. haha.. it's gone..

help~!!

oh no~!! im dead.. i went 2 dis studylink australia edu fair yest at panpac hotel.. my parents went 2.. actually dey wanted 2 check out flinders U adelaide and adelaide U.. bt studylink did nt invite dem 2 de fair.. so v tot v can like have a look at other U's.. 1st v saw newcastle.. as v were waitin 2 consult de guy in charged of newcastle.. der's dis old man hu approaches us.. he said he is de father of de man hu is in charged of newcastle hu we were waitin 2 consult.. den he tok 2 us n den he told us v can oso consult his older son.. which is i ges a big person in studylink.. mayb de boss.. so i told him i wud like 2 study nutrition n dietetics..n 1st tink he asked me is y nutrition n dietetics.. he say ppl in malaysians are still nt in2 gettin advices fr nutrition o dietetions on deir diets.. so mayb i can onli work in a hospital.. n he say y nt pharmacy.. malaysia is alwiz short of pharmacist.. bt of cuz it is nt easy 2 finish studyin pharmacy.. it's tough..bt i told him i dun reli like chem.. i prefer bio den chem.. dat's y i chose n&d.. den he started tellin me all de courses i can study in curtin international college, cic abt health science.. he calculated de fees.. n told my parents how much dey can save.. if.. I GIVE UP A-LEVELS NOW N FLY 2 AUZZIE BY JUNE N START MY 1ST YR OF U AT CURTIN INTERNATIONAL COLLEGE~!!! omg.. i wuz like.. wait wait~!! i dun plan 2 gif up a levels u c.. bt he say.. y waste time.. if i go der by june dis yr.. i ll start de 1st stage which is sumthg like foundation.. with dis foundation.. u can go2 ANY courses u like of health science bcuz deir 1st yr are basically all de same.. so u can actually spend de 1st yr observin wat ppl of let's say nutrition is studyin o wat r ppl of food science doin in labs etc etc..he say if i complete my a lvels.. i nid 2 wait 4 my a levels result.. which is comin out ard august.. n enter U by feb 2009n haf de 1st yr of U.. bt if i go now.. by june.. im at 2 yr of uni by feb 2009.. it saves time n money~ BUT~!! im nt prepared yet~!!! nt prepared AT ALL~!! my parents may nt understand.. u c.. once i made up my mind 2 go 4 a lvls.. i sort of like plan wat i ll do 4 de 1st sem of alvls 2nd sem n 3rd sem.. n after alvls.. i may haf a 7month break.. wat i can do.. i can work.. i can gt my drivin license etc etc.. den by feb 2009 i ll enter U.. it's like i planned everythg n is PREPARED 4 it 2 cum.. n is waitin.. bt if u suddenly shoot an brand new idea suggestin me 2 gif up wat i planned n do sumthg u had nvr tot abt.. noway.. im nt ready~!! im nt prepared 2 leave my frens.. 2 gif up de 6months i struggled studyin a lvls.. 2 leave moo.. 2 leave everythg i haf here m'sia.. 2 meet new frens.. 2 learn new stuff.. 2 accept new environment.. 2 change my lifestyle.. im nt prepared.. i nid sum1 2 tok 2..

mayb it's kinda early 2 worry abt it.. bt i can c my mum sort of favour dis pathway.. n my dad is like nt sure whther he shud send me off.. n if dey made up deir mind n tinks dat there's no point 4 me 2 continue my alvls.. i will hafta leave by june.. which is less den 2 months time..i cant even celebrate moo's bday.. my bday.. our 1 yr ani.. o even participate in de mckl gams carnival~!! de guy even gaf me a pre-departure briefin.. omg..

yes.. i wud like 2 study in auz.. mayb i ll b like damn excited n cant wait 2 go bt.. it's AFTER alevels.. now.. no.. im scared..